A New Chapter in the Story of My Life.

Haven blogged for awhile coz i was being a sick kid T_T

Had no mood to do anything ever since my gastritis striked.

It’s still not fully gone which means medicine everyday.

Only perk is that my appetite grew so small im losing weight

Been also preoccupied with some stuff.

I’m antagonizing over my life.

Somehow somewhere…i opened a new chapter in the story of my life…

It’s tittled the secret life of the M & T.L.M

Anywaysss…i wonder how this story is gonna turn out to be.

I hope i didnt make my life more complicated then i already did.

I was “counselled” today regarding how ” supposedly messed up” my life is…

Argh.I’m bothered.Or am i not?

Then again since when do i care about wad people think?

Maybe i just like to lead a complicated messed up life?

For all the sugar&spice it brings?

Hmms….

Busy Crazy Bee

Ahh…

I haven’t come online for soo long…n surpringly i din have much withdrawal symptoms..><

I was too busy to have any!!!

Night before was Chinatown trip after work wif Gojiujinsama+his fren+Grace.

Went for dinner n end up drinking beer!! ><

Ais is a lousy drinker…turned super red after a glass..><

Walked around after that and ended up at Party World for K-session!~

Whoo~ Gojiujinsama got quite nice voice XD

N we girls were pretty high singing away non stop~ N even a little dancing wahaha XD

Reached home at midnight n quickly clambered to bed…

Y’day…something happened after work.

Wasn’t supposed to be drinking again but ended up drinking more T_T

Got pretty drunk n wanted to sleep so badly…T_T

Anyways…i saw Dr Jekyll & Mr Hyde T_T

No i wasnt hallucinating from drinking…><

End up home after midnight again…n BF is back from camp! ^^

Woke up sick today T_T

Gastritis due to no dinner+alcohol+2 panadol xtra T_T

I practically drugges myself with 4 different meds ><

Went shopping wif bf after work.

Bought lots of clothes in pairs ><

2 T-shirts,2-Jeans,2 leggings,2 dressed,2 shorts. XD

Tats y they say good things comes in pairs LOL

Anyways i learnt some new words and phrases today…

Segmentisation of your life into different chapters of different books.

Complacent values.

And that i am sorta messing with someone wif a highly complicated life. LOL

Hmm..maybe i should try leading a highly complicated life too XD

All in all i should not think so much n juz get some sleep since im lacking it badly now

O_O

Missing You.

Ahh..usually me n my bf…

we aren’t the average couple that practice lovey dovey stuff n intimacy…

we r more like best buddies…

We do stupid silly stuff n goof around alot wif each other instead of cuddling n whispering sweet nothings…

We’ve been apart for days n it usually went quite well,

with me busy oogling @ Joongie or busy doing stuff n not thinking much of him.

Though of coz i do miss his nonsense when he not ard la..XD

So today…when he was about to leave for camp for his reservist.

I thought it was juz gonna b like any other times…

Was juz gonna casually hug him n give him a peck n say goodbye…

but somehow I don’t know why but i didn’t wanna let him go when i hugged him today. T_T

Ahh…i even felt that heart lurching feeling as i hear him say bye…T_T

Hmm..muz be feeling emo…coz somehow i keep missing him today T_T

Anyways Work was surprisingly hectic today of all days…

I took half day leave to meet Jac n collect my stuff…

We then went to her neighbourhood salon for a haircut…

I end up doing, color+highlight+treatment+haircut. ><

I sat there for 2 and a half hrs!!! My rear end was feeling very sore from it T_T

I guess it turned out quite ok…something diff from my usual midnight black hair Lol XD

Jac came to find me after her test n we went to pay her mum a visit.

Ahah her mum tot im same age as her!!~

Woohoo!~ ^^ So happy~

Went home and went for dinner wif Dear’s family…

Ahh it feels so weird without him…i was feeling nervous somehow…><

We den walked around SSC for awhile before heading home…

Argh…so much time passed so fast n i haven done anything much T_T

Finally managed to do finish Kyu’s b’day wish before sleeping T.T

I think it turned out quite serious looking T_T

Arghh oh well..im too tired…Nites all *yawns*

Masquerade

No i’m not about to talk about a party, dance, or other festive gathering

of persons wearing masks and other disguises,

and often elegant, historical, or fantastic costumes.

I’m gonna talk about how i find life,  so much like a masquerade ball.

Everywhere you go, you see people wearing “masks”

They disguise themselves. Rarely do you find people without a mask.

It’s so hard to find people who goes around being who they really are.

As much as everyone hates backstabbers, hypocrites and liars.

I guess no one can really escape life without telling one lie, saying something bad secretly once

or doing something they usually won’t?

So all in all…life is one big facade.

Gosh..that sounds like life is one big fat lie? X|

Nahh..ok i shouldn’t make it sound so bad…

Anyways i see it alot.

With people around me.

How they sway with the wind.

How they can be all nice to you at one time

and treat you like shit when things don’t seem so “rosy” anymore

Or when they are not so happy with you anymore.

Then they go to where the grass is “greener”

N you see for yourself how “fake” one can be.

N it makes you wonder whether you do such things to?

When you see people talking behind each other’s back…

Do u go up to them and say, Stop?

Do you join in? Just for the sake of fitting in, or juz to add in a piece of ur mind?

Well…i always believe in, Do not do unto others what others do unto you,

and also always to Practise what you Preach.

N if you don’t then you shouldn’t expect too much.

Ok end of Life Lessons XD

On to wad happened today…nothing much except another boring day of work…

Dear brought me to Breeks for dinner~

Whee!~ Finally proper food after days of maggie T_T

I had the chicken cutlet baked rice with curry~ It was nicee ^^

Dear went to get his new PS3…Whee!~ Got some new games to try playing ><

Ahh..It looks like we gonna have a busy weekend…

I’m dead tired now…T_T *yawns* off to masquerade with Joongie!~ XD

You are Beautifulll~

Work is super relaxing these few days…

HA…for once its actually quite “enjoyable”

But in a way its bad for business T_T

“Someones” being extremely nice to me…

unnoticingly we seem to be back to our usual “closeness”

Even though i said im gonna keep my distance…

but i just cant help being nice to people who r nice to me T_T

Been busy watching You’re Beautiful…

The show’s got me hooked on it and the songs r niceee~

I’m falling so in love with the show n the 3 boys in it ><

TaeKyung is currently my favorite!!!

He’s so cool and handsome!~ Plus i love how he always pouts

and try to look cool even though he wants to laugh!~

N his smile is sooo lovely!~

I love this scene, when Minam cried and he just hugged her. ><

I wan him to hug me too T_T

This animation of him is aoo adorableee!~

N n n him as himself : Jang Keun Suk

Without eyeliner he looks even more good looking! ><

Ahh i should not be so biased…

Of coz i still like Shinwoo – Yonghwa

The gentlemanly sweet prince~

N the cute n funny Jeremy – Hongki ^^

Ahah i’m still not done watching You’re beautiful so i shall go go go to watch it!~ ><

O btw M gonna start mine n finfin’s joint project on BOF inspired fanfic!~

We started discussing on names n personalities today ><

Ahah..so look forward to it coming soon! XD

Whee!~

Was feeling super upset and sulky the whole day yesterday…

I didn’t get my bonus T_T

N with it came alot of problems and it also means i can’t buy alot of stuff i wanted T_T

N i can practically say goodbye to having a holiday. T_T

I really feel like i have such a sad life…

Why oh why must i be such a sickly kid T_T

Well..on a brighter note…

Today went for Kyu’s Bday song rehearsal at Jennis’s house.

Met up wif Joey,Jac & Marissa to have lunch first.

Somehow being with the girls always makes me high~ Ahah ><

Then met up wif the other girls @ the mrt.

Met a few new faces today thought didnt speak much to them.

Ooo n i finally met Finnie!! ^^

The weather’s freaking hot again today…and i was feeling tired from it T_T

Jennis house was quite a distance from the mrt…T_T

N the poor Cms had a load of merchandise to carry.

OMO! The aloha photobook! Is in a huge box! I was kinda embarrased to carry it ><

But but! I was super happy when i opened it and saw my life sized Joongie poster!!! *squeals*

N the photobook was awesome! Pics were huge, clear n pretty!!~ ^^

Oh n bout the song..eh basically i guess since they still got amendments to do..it sounds pretty messy now.

N omg la..they did auditions to find solos…i nearly died in embarrasement when it was my turn..

ahah..end up i could only sing one sentence and gave up. wahahaha ><

I’ve decided this noona fan should juz stick to editing the pictorial book instead of singing wif dongsaengs ><

I shall leave my singing voice to the safety of the closed karaoke rooms! LOL

OOo n Finfin passed me my persona tees tat she collected for me ni got my Joongie perfume too!!~

Wahh the smell is soo manly n nicee~

I can so totally imagine him smelling like this!!! ><

M currently wearing my black tee with a few sprays of the perfume!~

Im gonna go to sleep thinking, smelling, dreaming of him!~ Woohoo!~

Oh n one particular news on my Joongie love made my day almost perfect. ^^

Hyun Joong Hyung answered,’Exactly! I’m SS501′s leader Kim Hyun Joong, I’m Kim Hyun Joong, don’t worry about that.’

Ahh…Joongie is so sweet to say that to a fan. Makes us all relieved to hear that he’s being strong!

Joongie fighting!!!~ ^^

You’re Beautiful.

I was given some time off from work today…

Ahah…made full use of it to finally watch You’re Beautiful drama which i have downloaded but yet to watch.

Ooo the A.N Jell team is soo cool!~

The main girl is a nun!!! WTH ><

N Hongki is soo adorable!!~ Kyaaaaa ><

That reminds me Rox is going for the FT fansign today >< *Envious*

N well the show seems nice! I can’t wait to watch Ep.2 but i got work tmr…T_T

Cant sleep late…Ah…

N n there were more pics of Joongie available today~

Woo~ More pics @ Wedding and More pics from Basic House!!!~

He looks so heart droppingly gorgeous in every single one!~

Ahhh…shall go LaLa Land and dream of him~ Whee~